Saturday workout: 5 miles
Sunday: REST
I was really good about heading straight downstairs to run on Saturday when I got home from work around 9 pm, but yesterday I was completely dazed. Something about a 12 hour shift vs 8 hour shift in the ED makes a huge difference in my ability to function afterwards. So what did I do? Turned on the remaining of the SuperBowl, drank half a beer, studied potential wedding bands on line, and then passed out.
I’m glad I turend on the rest of the game, because the 3rd and 4th quarters were exciting, even though I didn’t really care who won! Dean was at his parents’ house, so I called my dad so that I’d have someone to talk to about the game during the last 5 minutes of it.
It didn’t work out too well, though, because his TV broadcast of the game was at least ten seconds behind mine. I’d be yelling, “was that an interference??” and he was like “Huh?” cause the 49ers hadn’t even thrown the ball yet. haha.
At the end of the game, my dad was like, “so which one is this Ray Lewis guy” and I was like, “just look for the guy that’s crying”. ha.
This morning, as I write this, I will admit that I am not in a very good mood. I have already been notified via email that I made a few mistakes on some of my reads yesterday. I can’t even remember the last time I got what we call a “variance” (when the attending’s final read varies from our prelim read), and then I got three all from one day (yesterday). WTH? Was I rushing through studies? Was I not focusing hard enough? Was I not being careful? Was I getting too distracted by phone calls? Most of the mistakes were of little consequence, but one was pretty inexcusable on my part. It’s so easy to get distracted by one big thing that we forget to look carefully for other things (called “satisfaction of search”).
I get so mad at myself in situations like this, and it takes a shot at my confidence. At the same time, I have to remind myself that I am a RESIDENT. If we were perfect right after medical school, what would be the point of residency? We WILL make mistakes. That’s why we work with attendings, who look over work. That’s why radiologists spend SIX years in training after medical school.
It sucks realizing you made a mistake (none of my mistakes yesterday negatively affected patient care), but mistakes are powerful learning tools, and better to make them now in residency than when you’re out practicing on your own!
Anyway, c’est la vie….one must learn and then move on.
I don’t work until 4 tonight and am debating if I should stick to the TM or go for a nice, long, snowy run outside. There’s just something really serene about running in the snow.
I think that it’s crazy that your dad’s TV was 10 seconds behind yours… I have always figured that the delay between stations is only a second or two.
Making mistakes wears on me (I’m a pharmacist)… I’ve made a couple over the course of my 7 year career, and I still remember the exact patients and situations. Thankfully, nobody had any side effects/reactions/life-threatening events afterwards.
Making mistakes in life can be really frustrating but you’re right, they’re learning experiences and we should use them to improve and grow.
I vote for running outside in the snow! I went out yesterday when it was coming down and it was soo pretty. It wasn’t the fastest run but it was a lot of fun.
I know that feeling. As I am in grad school and interning as an attempt for a career change. I constantly feel like I am walking on eggshells or I feel so bad when I do something wrong or not thoroughly enough. Like you said, we all make mistakes and must learn from them. What a great attitude that you have.