Thank goodness for various aspects of my life, cause if you have a bad day in one area, you can always turn the day around with the other area. Today I had high hopes to do a medium-long to long run. I actually played around with the idea of doing it outside, but I have come to terms that running outside in the winter while pregnant is just not going to happen. It’s just not fun. Why? It’s not fun putting layers of clothing on, heading out for a run, and then frantically figuring out where I can go to the bathroom….i.e. what businesses with bathrooms are open on my way to the lakefront path, and then if I’m on the lakefront, where the heck I can hide away from the public’s view to squat. So today, I didn’t even try. If it was going to happen, it was going to happen on the TM, so last night I made sure my iPad was charged with new 24 episodes, ate a good, pre-workout breakfast, and then headed down the TM. Unfortunately, my mind’s eagerness to fit in a good run was not matched by body’s eagerness…it wanted nothing to do with it. Both my colon and bladder did not cooperate. There was someone running on the one other treadmill next to me, and it was super embarrassing the number of times I had to get off the TM and run to the bathroom. I lasted for 7 miles and then threw in the towel.
Obviously, there is nothing I could do about quitting the run. It’s not like I just quit because I got bored or didn’t feel like running or was tired….my body wasn’t cooperating, and I’m not going to push myself when I’m pregnant if I don’t feel well (even if it has nothing to do with the pregnancy per se and is just GI issues), but it still left me in a very bad mood. Quitting is just not something I or obviously anyone likes to do. So, thank goodness I had work to get ready for and lift me out of my sour mood. I don’t know how a person can put all their eggs in one basket and have ambition and passion for only one thing….
Growing up from elementary school through high school, I would have ~2 hour skating practices before school (and often practices after school as well). Skating had a huge effect on my mood…how does something like that not when you so badly want to succeed at something and work so hard at it? I would either be furious with myself if my practice did not go as well as I had hoped, or would be in the best mood if it went well…if say, I had nailed a bunch of double axels and triples and skated my program cleanly.
Many people in the skating world at the senior level are homeschooled. For some people, this may be an appropriate situation. For me and my personality/mindset, it would have been a terrible situation, because if I had a bad day skating, then I had school and my friends to change my mood around, and if I had a bad day at school, well then skating practice could help change that (and if I had a bad day at both, best to keep a safe distance from me : ). Had I only cared about school or only cared about skating, I would’ve driven myself crazy. Some may think trying to fit a lot in (sports, social, academics/career) results in too much stress or being “imbalanced”, whatever the heck that means, but to me, it kept and keeps me “balanced” and sane. I love having various areas of my life to have goals in and get excited about. Keeps me from obsessively focusing on and basing my sense of success and identity on any one thing. Obviously, what those various things are and the amount of time you devote to each thing will change as you go through life, start a family, start a new job, etc., but I still think it is so important, at least for me, to have different things to focus on.
Since you probably aren’t going to see a whole lot of outside scenic running pictures from me for awhile, I’ll post a few that I took from Sunday morning’s run outside. Pictures were taken with my Canon PowerShot:
Hope everyone is off to a good week. I will be 16 weeks tomorrow (and thus starting my 17th week!). Haven’t decided if I’m going to do a formal pregnancy update or not (kind of already vented and updated you on the running aspect, haha). I may change to doing one every other week. We’ll see. Hoping to find out the sex of the baby soon : )